submitted for approval

I'm so overwhelmed, I can't believe the time is getting so close. I was told it could take anywhere from 2 - 4 weeks for Blue Cross to send the approval. It's crazy because I've never expected the insurance company could possibly deny me, but now I'm scared. I just don't want to get excited only to find out I've been declined.

On another note, I've been so adamant about wanted lapband, but yesterday, I radically made the decision to go with gastric bypass. I did tell my support group (fam and friends) with the exception of my mother cuz I just don't feel like hearing her rants about something she knows nothing about. I'll tell her at a later date, but not right now.

Why did I choose gastric instead of lapband? Suddenly, lapband didn't sound so appealling. I'd rather deal with a major surgery up front, with little maintinence. With lapband, I'll have to get fills, and it's proven that you don't lose as much weight. On average, I was told that you'll lose 60% of excess body weight with lapband, I need to know I can lose more than that. I don't doubt that I can lose more, but I want to take every precaution.

Also, I've been so concerned about failing at excercising. It's something I really want to do, but honestly...I was never good at it, even with two legs. I have another set of things that will need to be done, but I should be able to do it in a span of a couple of weeks. I'll have to take J with me as he's my support person, to my pre-op class on march 2nd.

OMG, another irritation that I almost forgot to mention. Not really an irritation because I guess I'm willing to continue jumping through hoops. I have some bacteria in my stomach that "could" cause ulcers. So, the doc put me on some drugs that were $100! Man, that is so freakin insane! That's way too much money for something that I may or may not get. So, I was complaining to the pharmist, and she told me that the insurance picked up $268! Wow, that is so crazy to me.

Well, I guess that it for now. I'm sleepy. I'll blog again...probably after I hear the word. Fingers crossed and constant prayers!